i don’t really care if it is only a month
i don’t really care if i would have to answer millions of questions about it
i don’t really care if i would have to face snide comments about me not being able to stay long enough in it
i don’t really care what people will say
because i would rather face all that,
pretend that i am okay while i am not
trust blindly while all my guts and senses say don’t
invest all the time and money for something that apparently might be worthless
and most of all,
i would rather face all that,
than to stand in the brink of rejection.
i have spent months and years trying to heal and build myself up,
so i won’t let you,
tearing it down.
not a chance.
so bring it on!
i am ready for both.